I haven’t been feeling the best lately and don’t know what to write. I don’t want to just complain about everything, so I took a break from blogging.
I had my birthday, then other things happened and now I’m struggling to get through summer. I have no plans for the future. Since the diagnosis, I feel that I’ve been in exile from myself or something. I’m not the person I was before, I’m a different person who is struggling with shit I used to be able to deal with.
Who am I now?
I have no life raft, no routine, and now, nothing from the NDIA. I have no idea what the hell is happening since the their last phone call made me cry. All I can think of doing is watching videos.
I watch a lot of You Tube and have found some channels I really enjoy watching and wanted to share some with my readers:
Foo the flower horn: Beautiful videos about a fish who lives in a tank with plants.
Ask a mortician: Answers all your questions about death and the funeral process.
Fish whisperer: Cool videos of fish and turtles being fed.
Sean Hogan: I recently found this channel. A man finds sounds and makes songs with them.
Captain Disillusion: Funny debunking videos from the Internet.
The Minimalists: I found these two through a Netflix documentary. I’ve become a bit of a minimalist myself, but mainly because I really hate clutter, excess cleaning and wasting money. I also find clutter, chaos and mess very stressful and over whelming.
Fluffee: A Canadian man comments on funny photos from the Internet.
Jessica Kellgren – Fozard: Is a disabled woman who makes videos on a wide range of topics.
The Outsider: He built a log cabin with his father in the Canadian woods. This is what I really want to do.
My self reliance: Another channel where a Canadian man builds a log cabin and walks around in the snow.
Tito the raccoon: A man who has a raccoon for a pet.
Elvis the Alien: An American man who make funny commentary about silly you tube videos.
Sgt Ducky: An Irish man make videos about things that annoy him.
Grade A under a: English man who used to make funny stick figure videos. Hopefully he’ll make more soon.
Rachel Maksy: Woman who make tutorials on vintage fashion.
Isaac Butterfield: Australian comedian.
Momma Doctor Jones: An OBGYN doctor who talks about health issues.
Chicken on a raft: I’m normally not into obscure things, but for some reason I love the original version of this song and the video. I found it many years ago. Just to warn you, this song is very catchy.
These are the ones I can think of now, but there’s lots more.
I’ve been wanting to make my own channel for years now, but I’m insecure about showing my face on the Internet. I guess that says a lot about my lack of confidence and self esteem.
(c)ASD plus me 2020.