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Hello readers, I didn’t realise it had been weeks since I posted, so to give myself a break from endless Youtube, Amazon and the new Animal Crossing, I’ll write about something.

I’m not even sure what to write. All my ambitions about this blog have gone out the window so now, I don’t know how I feel, I don’t want to try and find out because I don’t want to cry again or panic. I already cried at the supermarket because they didn’t have the cheese I needed.

I need to find a hobby, so I thought I would buy some fabric to make an apron. But then I remembered social distancing is a thing now and I can’t leave my house. I don’t even want to go out in my backyard because the weather is unpredictable here.

I can’t even finish my online course because I don’t know what to do. I can only speak to the tutor for 1 hour on Mondays, then I can only email her. I’ve really lost motivation for everything and its still only march.

What can I do?

I get really annoyed and frustrated when I see brats running wild in the street. I even saw a boy wearing a mask and that really pissed me off and it took me ages to calm down. I can’t watch news because it makes me sad or angry and that makes my anxiety worse.

I also need to stop looking at things online I want to buy but can’t. I made a wishlist on Big W and Best and less websites for things I may want to buy if the weather is good enough for me to drive 1 hour on the highway to get to these shops. Maybe the library will be open and I can borrow some books.

I watched a great video by Chelsea Fagan from The Financial Diet about staying sane, so if you need some help, go watch it.

(c)ASD and me 2020.

Frustrated Aspie · NDIS · Thoughts

I still have no idea what’s happening

I just wrote a complaint letter to the LAC company. It took me over an hour to write and I kept editing, cutting, moving, retyping, to make sure it was as good as I can get it. I guess I can make it better but I wanted to send it because I had bad sleep last night and it was on my mind this morning when I was woken early.

I hate the LAC and the company. I have no idea why the NDIA won’t cancel my contract with them and go with someone else. They say it is up to us what providers we choose, then why can’t I change?

I’m just meant to be grateful with the crumbs that are thrown my way. I know I’ve said that before, but its true. I really feel like they don’t care. I’m trapped and I need help. But when I ask for it I’m denied, or told I already have “enough” or that I don’t qualify for more help.

I’m so tired of this. Thinking of it makes my brain exhausted and I can’t make a proper thought. The fog thickens and the bees start buzzing louder and I can’t see or hear above the din.

I doubt the LAC company will do anything about my complaint. These companies are usually incompetent, so I’m not holding my breath for a miracle.

(c) ASD and me 2020.

Thoughts

Put down the toilet paper and back away

I went shopping a week ago at Woollies and noticed that the toilet paper isle was empty. I was walking through the isle with a trolley on my way to the tills and thought that it was strange but didn’t really think about it. They had some items not back in stock yet during the bushfires, so I didn’t worry about it.

When I arrived home, I told BF that Woollies shelves were empty of toilet paper. He said it was lucky I bought a large bag of it last week. I thought of writing about this last week, but have been keeping busy moving furniture around and cleaning, vacuuming a bit, going through and writing lists of winter clothing I own and painting 2 canvasses with bushfire scenes.

On Sunday, I saw a YouTube video by and Australian comedian named Isaac Butterfield. He had made a video about the toilet paper crises, know as Toilet paper gate.

People fighting, pulling knives, now a shop even had to hire security , not to stop people stealing from the store, just to stand by piles of bog roll and what, stop people stabbing eachother?

Remember its just toilet paper, bog roll, shitter paper, shit tickets. Do you really want to to be arrested and have a permanent criminal record over a fight with someone for an arse napkin?

Here are some alternatives:

  • Rags that you wash in boiling water and Dettol or disinfectant.
  • A small amount of tissues (but don’t flush them, put in a bin).
  • Have a bidet installed.
  • Newspaper
  • Magazine pages or spam pamphlets.
  • A cat litter tray (cats use it, so why can’t we?)
  • Corn cob husks (the leaf part that gets pulled off)
  • A4 paper or computer printer paper. Why recycle when you can use it? If it has confidential information, then all the better. No one will want to steal or even touch the paper afterwards.
  • A “Bum gun” or a water sprayer that connects to your toilet and is like a hand held Bidet.
  • A sponge that can be washed or burned. Possibly on a stick.
  • Cardboard tubes
  • Cotton balls or flat round wipes used for make up.
  • Snow. I read this and don’t see how this is possible, but if you’re desperate…
  • Rope? I read sailors and pirates used to use it.
  • Banana leaves or soft leaves with out thorns or prickles.
  • The leaves that are really soft like rabbit ears.
  • Old receipts. Just make sure you don’t need to keep these for a return.

If you do find yourself in a confrontation with a crazy person fighting you over toilet paper, just let them have it. Seriously, its really not worth your safety and sanity. Just drop the toilet paper, or bag of rice or whatever it is on the ground or put it on a shelf and walk away. Tell the staff in the shop what happened then leave and go home.

(c) ASD and me 2020.

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/anxiety/types-of-anxiety/gad

https://www.sbs.com.au/topics/voices/health/article/2020/03/03/why-people-living-anxiety-are-struggling-cope-coverage-coronavirus?cid=inbody:the-internet-on-australias-toiletpapergate

https://www.cdc.gov/handwashing/when-how-handwashing.html