Posted in Depression, Struggle, Thoughts

Drowning in tears

I’ve been feeling so depressed lately sometimes it feels like I wont stop crying. A few times I felt my eyes almost fill with tears and I don’t know why. I’m hoping my support coordinator can find some new services to help me soon.

I still can’t believe the psychologist and CV used and abused me. I’m still having trouble sleeping, eating, getting motivated etc. I’m struggling to write on this blog every weekday as well, but I really want a book published.

I don’t even feel like painting anymore. All the money I made from selling the 4 paintings was spent on new art materials and now I regret it. Maybe I’ll feel better in the future and I’ll want to paint again. For now, I only have the energy for drawing small watercolour paintings.

(c) ASD and me 2021

Posted in 2021, ASD, ASMR, Autism, Thoughts

I need to grow…

I’ve been trying to push myself to do new things the past almost 2 years since my funding was approved. It normally doesn’t go as well as I had hoped, but at least I’m able to leave the house and I’m still alive.

I still want to work and travel and a lot more things I hope I can do in the future when covid is finally over.

(c) ASD and me 2021.

I need to grow…