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My autumn heart…

It’s autumn here in Australia. It’s my favourite season because the leaves on the deciduous trees are changing to beautiful warm palette colours; the days are not boiling hot 30 degrees and above, the cool breezes return and I get to wear winter clothing and sleep near the fireplace.

(c) ASD and me 2021

Posted in ASD, Depression, Struggle, Thoughts

People staring and pointing at me…

This has happened to me many times in my life. People have stared at me, gossiped about me, pointed at me, bullied me deliberately excluded me, used me, abused me, hurt me emotionally and physically and more things I think I have blocked out.

I’ve never had a real friend. The people I’ve thought were my friends were like facebook friends, just a click on a screen, just electric dreams, an illusion of friendship. These people are fleeting and temporary and don’t really matter. They don’t care about me, just use me as a tool to get what they want, either a free lift home or something else.