Tag: #Autism

I still feel so betrayed by my community visitor person. She said we were good friends and acted like we were. I trusted her and told her about my secrets and showed her my drawings. I opened up more to her than I have to any other person. So how was this bravery on my part rewarded?

She stabbed me in the back!

I’ve mentioned before how she took my photo without my permission and printed it in the paper, especially after I had said no many times. So she knew, she just didn’t care. She was just pretending to be my friend and care about me for money.

Now I can’t sleep and my appetite is erratic. I was trying to eat healthy, but now its really difficult to even decide what to eat or have the energy to cook.

I’m so confused about what happened, I have no one to talk to about it and I have no closure. She’s not even a real psychologist, but pretended to be for money I guess.

Did they think they could trick me out of my funding? I still have no idea.

What I do have are sleepless nights full of tossing, turning and crying. I’m worse off than I was before and my depression has worsened.

But nothing has happened to her, her life is still fine. She still has a family and a job where she can manipulate and use people for her own means and get away with it.

I don’t know how to proceed. How do I get past this massive Mount Everest sized betrayal?

(c) ASD and me 2021.