ASD and me

I found on the 17th I had skin cancer.

Firstly, I had to sit in the waiting room which was cramped, even with the social distancing. The hallway was filled with people waiting for their “vaccine” shots. I normally sit in the front room. It has no heating or air con, but its quieter, so I take the sacrifice.

Now its Monday 20th and I’m still stressed. Its hard to sleep and concentrate. I really just want this over and done with so I can move on and stop stressing.

We plan to go for a holiday when this is over and I’m fully healed.

Hopefully when I see the specialist tomorrow, he can see me to operate as soon as possible.

I can’t stand these stupid lockdowns. I really want to run away. I’m so stressed. NA bf keeps being and abusive dickhead. i just hate it here! I need to leave.

I also had a biopsy on Friday and now I’m afraid i’ll have cancer. I really dont want cancer. now i have no friends and no one to talk to. I’m so depressed and cry all the time now.

I’m so tired of these stupid fucking lockdowns! When will they end?

Its making my anxiety and depression.

And I just had and awful NDIS review and my funding will be cut a lot, because I didn’t use all of it last time. That’s not my fault! Its fucking covid!

I am so stressed and worn out from this shit. I just need to remember this at the next election. There’s no way in hell that I’m voting for liberals.

I really want to drive away. But no wait, I can’t, because of the lockdowns.

It’s the third week of lock downs in Sydney and its wearing me down. I hate having to stay home now. I know its winter, but I still want to go out sometimes.

I also hate wearing masks. They make my face humid and sometimes sweaty. When no one is around, I take one side off for a second to breathe fresh air, them return it to my ear.

My support coordinator is trying to find me a literary agent to help get my book published. When it does, ill advertise it on my blogs.

Wish me luck.

Here is a link to my new blog. I’m uploading more art over there and Ill leave this for private thought from now on.

Please visit me on the new site. Please feel free to unsubscribe from this blog if you want to subscribe to the new one.

Thanks.

I’ve started a new blog for my drawings. I need professional site for agents and publishers to view my work, and I don’t want to change this one. I’ll keep this one for my personal blogging, but the new one will be for my art stuff only.

My new blog is called: ” Drawings from my mind”.

I’ll be uploading all the images from my old blogs and this one, so its will be a lot of work to re edit everything, and new logos etc.

Hopefully people will follow me there. feel free to unfollow this blog to follow my new blog, if you dont want to follow both.

Thanks for visiting from ASD and me.